Are you like me? Do you dread Mondays? Ok here is the funny thing, I don’t have a 9-5 job Monday - Friday so you would think that I have no reason to dread it. The truth is, I shouldn’t hate it. Along my life journey over the last 9 years, I’ve learned a lot. I’ve learned that even though I don’t have a good reason for something, or it doesn't make sense, it doesn’t mean I can’t still feel any certain way. I needed lots of will power to get up today, and some support from my amazing husband.
Most of you that have followed my journey know that I have struggled a lot with some mental health issues. I was very open about it when I first reached out for help. I’ve been much quieter about my path as I’ve started to feel better however, I don’t want to ever forget that there are people out that who battle their issues every single day. Today was a battle for me.
If you watch the news it seems like the whole world had gone up in flames ( literally ). If you get on social media it seems like no one, even the closest of friends can get along. It all seems so huge and yet so personal that I had almost forgotten that there are problems outside of that…..like in our own small circles and homes. My family has plenty of issues. I don’t know that any family who doesn’t. but add a blended family and 10 humans, it’s a given we will see plenty trials along our way.
So, we are going through some stuff and it made me think, how can I write anything that will be of value? I’m failing at life and I’m going to type some uplifting and inspiring message to help people see the world as a brighter place? See, it was a rough day. I got on my computer and thought about all the things I could write about….soooo much going on in my mind and yet I don’t want to say the wrong thing. I thought, I can just write about how I’m tired of the hate and just want everyone to love each other, or how I think we all ( and by all I mean most) want people to be happy and loved and safe. I could have taken any of those routes. I didn’t.
Today I just want to say how blessed I feel to have the family I do. Trials and all. How thankful I am that I have people who support me on every kind of day. I want to say that no matter if it’s the best day of your life or the hardest day, you have something to offer to all of us. You matter. My motivation today is to set a better example for my kiddos, and to push through good or bad and definitely the imperfect days. If you are going through some stuff in your personal life that seems like it’s trivial compared to world news, its not. It’s important and it’s valid and it’s ok to feel what you are feeling. Don’t misunderstand, I think we will all be held accountable for what we do with those feelings but we shouldn’t be made to feel guilty because we felt something. This world is filled with small you’s and me’s. Tiny families that extend into large communities. The world is made up of us so lets not forget to take care of each other and ourselves.
Happy Monday everyone!